A sleeping potato

So I was cleaning my bookshelf, categorizing it, and wiping the covers clean.

Books were all around me. I loved that feeling. I made myself a papier Palace, I flipped through pages and smelt the vanilla fragrance from the pulp. Many books were virgin, many more were touched by me and others.

After almost two hours, I grew tired. I slept the way I was. In my drowsiness, I pulled a hapless book out of the pile and made a pillow out of it. I brought a book or two close to myself and slept off.

Mom wondered what took me so long. She peeped through the key hole and saw no one standing in the room. She opened the door a bit and noticed a silhouette sleeping. She carefully ushered herself in, careful not to step on any book. Each book is Saraswati, personified.

To think of it, I’d have indulged Saraswati many more times when I threw out more than 2 dozen books into the empty plot adjacent to our flat. But that’s another story for another day. I’m sorry didi.

She felt that I was cold. She covered me with a blanket. Like an infant who latches on to a nipple, I grabbed the blanket and pulled it closer – all in my sleep.

She took my phone, unlocked it – yes she knows the password to my phone, I taught it to her because I am an open book – and opened the Camera. With the rudimentary photography skills she possessed, she clicked this one photograph of me sleeping.



She quietly left the room like nothing happened. I woke up couple of hours later, and checked my phone for notifications. I rearranged my shelf, ate dinner and went to sleep.

Next day, I was cleaning my phone when I saw this picture. I went to mom and showed it to her, she smiled. I was in glee.

Joker

There. I described the movie in one word – explosive. But that’s not all, this movie is a tribute to anyone who has attempted to bring this character to life, come close to showcasing the madness, and has brought the character on paper. This movie is a montage.

Taxi Driver. The killing joke. The king of comedy. American psycho. The machinist. The dark knight. And many more.

I saw this movie on 2nd October. I sat on my seat barely 30 seconds before the movie started. The movie did not have an opening credits scene. It plunged the audience into the make believe world of Arthur Fleck, who is painting his face.

The name of the movie is, in itself, a giveaway. You’re not expecting a fairy tale. You know you’re expecting a gut wrenching, mind boggling, spine chilling, quasi emotional tale of a guy descending into madness. The movie delivers, and then some. The long and high staircase is reminiscent of Arthur trying to maintain his sanity, climbing the steps one at a time.



He gets beaten, he is ostracized, he is tempted, he is shattered, he is abused, he is lost and he is found.

Not giving away any spoilers, I’ll say this – watch the movie with an open mind, because this movie is not faithful to the material. This movie is a standalone origins movie of an antagonist who juxtaposes the character of Bruce Wayne.

The background score is a powerful reminder of The Dark Knight and The Game of Shadows. The scene would have a lesser impact if the background music wasn’t there. The cinematography is real, as if it is being told from the eyes of a toddler. The movie doesn’t shy away from matricide, homicide or a riot.

As I woke up today, I saw at least 20 of my contacts having posted about watching the movie. When I watched the movie, the audience was silent – eerily silent. They were immersed in the movie. Except for the iconic scenes, the audience didn’t dare munch a pop corn, lest they should make a noise.

The ending followed a standing ovation from the audience.

I wondered if the claims were true, that this movie will justify madness, incite incel violence, and chaos. It doesn’t. No matter what Arthur does, no matter what he goes through, you sympathize but don’t empathize. You know he’s digging a deeper hole to bury himself. He’s waiting to be recognized. He believes that he is not visible to the world, that an act of homicide makes him believe that he exists. A patient of delusional psychosis himself, he doesn’t shy away from admitting that he needs help.

Even as he is an elevator with a mental patient who can’t hold himself. The patient is seen struggling to be unchained, to be unleashed. We see what Arthur is feeling from within. He is struggling to let himself loose.

He believed that his life was a tragedy, but alas, his life was a comedy.

And then, he walks off. As he takes each step, you notice that his footprints are visible on the white vinyl floor. They are marked by blood. He walks non chalantly, leaving enough clues, and reaches a crescendo when he feels his heart filled with joy. This is who he is.

His mother told him that he’s here to spread joy and laughter in this cold, dark world.