I write for the sake of writing

“I was with my herd, learning to hunt. The other day, I saw my neighbor stalk a worthy prey — a bison — too close and get kicked off. I remembered it. I wonder if the bison remembers it. I carefully lifted up my head to see what is above the bushes. I spotted the bison, and I signaled the same to my herd. I was given the task of keeping a vigil and watch. Vigil – so that any of the big cat doesn’t reduce our numbers. And, watch – so that I can ensure that the herd never sleeps empty-stomach.


Suddenly, the bison gets distracted. Did he notice me? Yes, he did — for he was running away from my direction. I shouted and ran to get that bison. I was angry that a bovine got the better of a Homo Sapiens. The herd got the cue and came to my support. That night, the toast was on me. The King was very pleased with me, and presented me with the bison’s horns. It’s a rare honor.


Why am I writing all of this, on a coconut leaf, in a pictorial format? Do I want anyone to read it? Do I wish to be famous? Do I crave for anything apart from food? I write, simply for the sake of it”, read the analyst who had just deciphered a pictograph barely visible on a dried coconut leaf he found in an excavation site.

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“I visited the royal durbar today. The grandeur, the luxury, and the jewelry blinded my eyes. I was actually invited, along with my father’s troupe. Once the Shehensehah dropped his silk kerchief, my father started his circus show. He is a ring master, you know. He has tamed many an animal, including a wolf.

You may be laughing and sneering that lions and tigers are more dangerous than a wolf. But, let me assure you, you would’ve never seen a wolf perform in a circus. Wolves are full of pride. They listen either to themselves or to the pack leader.
My father tamed a wolf because he was the one who raised it. But, that is a secret nobody knows. Not even the Shehenshah. No wonder everybody was in awe. I saw everybody’s eyes wide open in excitement and exhilaration. My father glanced towards me, and I can tell that he is happy too.


I performed the final act. I patted the wolf’s head, opened his jaws and entered my head in it. Everybody shouted ‘Ooooo!’ not knowing that I was the one who fed the wolf that very afternoon. I know animals are never greedy, they eat only when they are hungry. They don’t stock their kills.


The show ended with the Princess herself gifting me her golden necklace.


Why am I writing all of this, on a piece of paper, in Urdu script? Do I want anyone to know of my father’s secrets? Do I wish to be a whistleblower? I write, simply for the sake of it”, read a Urdu scholar who found this piece of paper stuffed inside a wooden horse dating back to 1700 AD.

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“I am reading a book called ‘The book thief’. It is a book of a totally different genre. Death is a narrator in it, and it’s set in WW-2 era Germany. As I am reading the book, my mind is wandering in all directions and timeframes, and is wondering whether I should (also) write something.

I switched my laptop on, opened my OneNote, and began to type whatever came to my mind. After a minute or so, one question was coming in my head incessantly. ‘Why are you writing it?’, kept ticking in my head. I began to think.


Why is it that I write? To impress the opposite or same sex? To get published? Or to get more likes? None of the answers seemed to satiate me. It then dawned on me. All these years, ever since I’ve thought of making writing a prospective hobby, I’ve been writing for the sake of it. Then, why? Why do I need any better reason to write? What better purpose can there be, than to write just for the sake of it? When you write to impress, you are no longer writing. You are living up to the expectations of the reader. When you write to get published, you are no longer writing. You are commercializing your brain. When you are writing to get more likes, you are not writing. You are giving in to the herd culture, limiting your perspective to that of the herd’s.
I am. I am the only one of my kind. And, I write for the sake of it”, read an avid Facebooker from the page she follows regularly.

Answering Proust

So I found the Proust Questionnaire and I thought of answering it. Like the ghost of Christmas Present says, ‘Know me better human!’

An interesting thing to note would be that I’ve answered the questions spontaneously, giving myself little time to think and think of a better answer.

What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Books, animals around me, soulful music and the voice of Stephen Fry narrating my best novels

What is your greatest fear?
Of encountering a situation where it’s better to say no but I can’t, because I don’t know how to say no

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
Unable to be assertive

What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Not being punctual, manipulative, attention seeking,

Which living person do you most admire?
No one in particular

What is your greatest extravagance?
Buying books worth 20USD, having brunch in a 4 star restaurant

What is your current state of mind?
Peaceful, bliss, unaffected, indifferent

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Loyalty

On what occasion do you lie?
When I think that lie is better than truth, when I think that my lie would not be caught, when I think that the person doesn’t deserve the truth

What do you most dislike about your appearance?
Pot belly, hair all over my body,

Which living person do you most despise?
No one in particular, I don’t spend time despising someone

What is the quality you most like in a man?
I don’t differentiate between genders, in humans, the quality I admire is grit

What is the quality you most like in a woman?
Same as above

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
Literally, as a matter of fact, come on, so what you’re trying to say is,

What or who is the greatest love of your life?
A pen that writes so smoothly that it glides on paper effortlessly

When and where were you happiest?
Marina Beach, Chennai – witnessing a Sunrise

Which talent would you most like to have?
Not being complacent

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I’d stop procrastinating

What do you consider your greatest achievement?
My article getting published in The Hindu – the one I wrote for Mother’s Day

If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?
I’d return as a monk

Where would you most like to live?
Rishikesh

What is your most treasured possession?
I don’t have any

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Sleeping empty stomach

What is your favourite occupation?
Writing

What is your most marked characteristic?
Empathy

What do you most value in your friends?
I don’t know

Who are your favourite writers?
Ayn Rand, William Dalrymple, Richard Bach, Herman Hesse, Umberto Eco, Harper Lee, Truman Capote, Yann Martel, so many others

Who is your hero of fiction?
Sherlock Holmes

Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Nikola Tesla, Ken Miles

Who are your heroes in real life?
No one in particular

What are your favourite names?
Victor, V

What is it that you most dislike?
Not keeping me informed about things related to me

What is your greatest regret?
Destroying the lives of women and causing trauma to their families

How would you like to die?
In sleep, or probably while I read a book

What is your motto?
Sonríe sì crees – Smile if you believe
Expectations hurt